My fucking Journal

Mon, 17 May 2004 04:44:18 GMT

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Sat, 21 Jun 2003 01:33:50 GMT

Judgment day

OK well, today I basically spent the day with my mother, She went to the hospital to get check for cancer or some bullshit, The weirdest thing happened while I was there waiting for her, I was tired as fuck right, so I lay my head back but as I start to fall asleep this weird fucking thing happens, It felt like something was taking over my body and like I had no energy in my body so I had to like use all my energy to try and sit up, and it kept happening over and over, weird fucking thing, just one of many, heh

Then I went to doctor graber, Basically she kicked me out as her being my doctor (like I give a fuck) because of the situation (I stole blank prescription slips) :( lucky enough tho, I think they wont be pressing charges which would like make it a felony, thank god, she did say a cop might visit me or some bullshit but what ever I don't fucking care man, Just happy it wasn't something worse. I won't be doing something like that again though, dumb childhood mistakes, what can you do?

I went shopping after that, I went to the fucking store I hate to fucking death... Home Depot, A fucking noying, ugh, then I went and bought some new clothes etcetc And I just happened to run into my brother and his wife, It was pretty interesting....and weird....... but that's another story

Then I got a meeting with this guy Juelz, at 1pm, I hope I remember to go and shit, But I duno I don't like the vibes on this guy

I'm sadly depressed and I don't know how I am gona get out of this one. Pray for me

Tue, 17 Jun 2003 04:59:10 GMT

Well well well...

Today marks the end of school... Thank god.....finally, I'm very surprised at my self, that I would make it thus far. It's a great yet disturbing feeling. I've passed just about everything yet I am having doubts about psychology... Ms. Rodartae. Fucking Mexican bitch... But if she fails me im sure she has good reason to, with what I've done and all. But still... fuck. Oh well, time will tell. Today really got me a bit depressed, the whole human interaction thing is a bit sad. At least here. People are so dull and so boring, or maybe it's because im desensitized to the whole thing? Or maybe a bit to ahead? Who fucking knows, but it sucks a bit. My English teacher told me I could possibly be a good writer :) That was a bit uplifting considering the fact I hate to write and anything to do with a pen. I've joined the soccer team.. I love it, it's very exlierating sport, no wonder why I loved it always as a kid! I plan to stick with this, but now that it's summer it's time to get in better shape for it, so once these tests and regents are done it's time to trraaaaain! I still feel bad about quitting football, but who gives a fuck? It's all about what makes you happy right? Those guys were really a bunch of gay fucking pricks, but I understand some what why they act the way they do, but soccer is way much better to me compared to that bullshit. Ah enough of this school bullshit.

Music

Now in this time of summer its time to par up the skills, seriously, I'm gona launch a tight site to go along with the music, I want everything to be new, Still talking to attorneys and such, And I honestly hope to place at least 1 work with a major artist this summer, That would make my whole day honestly, Not saying there's anything wrong with my own artist, but I would love to get paid! Heh

Life-

My mom is still being a fucking bitch and she's seriously pissing me off. She's very insensitive to how I feel, and she acts totally off for a mother, Id never allow my wife to act that way to a child, it's embarrassing, annoying and honestly pretty fucking stupid, Some times I seriously wana slap the shit out of her for being so fucking annoying, but then in my heart I sympathize because I know of all the struggle she has been trough to raise me. Agh, I will be leaving here to my own apartment soon, Can't take much more of it. All and all I pray and hope this summer turns out well, I need some good experiences in my life right now.

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 22:13:35 GMT

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 22:12:18 GMT

Bleh, Today was pretty cool, another long bring ass day at school........ . heh. I hope I pass my fuking classes, I'm gona be very pissed if I don't, Seriously cant afford any bullshit, Went ant practiced with the soccer team, think im really gona join that, it was pretty fun and reminded me of my childhood days, and that's about it, I gota fucking practice lullaby for piano finals tomorrow, fucking shit, heh but I feel like sleeeeeeeping, but oh fucking well, Music is going pretty good, making new connections everyday and bringing my self one step closer to my goal! That's all for right now, heh